AUTHOR’S NOTE: After five decades of self-analysis using various metaphysical techniques, I understand myself much better than I know anyone else, so I decided to test this psychological profiling method on my own character by asking “Who am I now?” At least on the surface, the overall picture isn’t very encouraging (as one might expect from any unflinching self-portrait of someone my age) suggesting that I’m facing some problematic constraints in my continued development as a divination consultant (or maybe the Universe has decided I’ve gone as far as I can this time around). I’m clearly not the innocent and comparatively clueless naif I was back in the ’70s when I started down this path; cynicism tinged with pessimism about the “human condition” has crept in along with my lifetime of practical experience. On the other hand, I’m not really looking for another full-time career after retirement, just a chance to steadily sharpen my predictive skills and expand my horizons as a professional reader with something to offer.

The Whip overlaying the Child describes the internal argument I’ve been having with my better judgment (aka “native instincts”) over how best to make a fresh start in reinventing myself as a socially-motivated diviner. I’m not really sure whether I want to expose my “inner child” to external drama by aggressively pushing myself into the public arena. (I previously worked at a shop where the logistics were handled by the shopkeeper and I just showed up on-schedule, so there was no energetic self-promotion involved.)

The Sun + Fish pairing suggests that I have an abundance of untapped potential waiting to be released.

Heart + Tree could be taken to mean “heart disease” (a hereditary vulnerability of mine) but this is a psychological snapshot so I’m interpreting it as being “heart-sore” over my inability to fully exercise my passion.

Lilies + Stars affirm that family support offers a springboard for self-realization. This is certainly the case.

Key (and Man) + Letter clearly shows that written communication (as amply demonstrated by this blog and the five e-books it spawned) is central to my continued growth.

Anchor + Cross (along with House + Tower below) denote having become entrenched in my outlook on life, which stifles the empowering advantages of structure and stability. Anchor can mean becoming “stuck,” and Cross hints at “cement overshoes.” I need to pay attention here!

House + Tower at best symbolize “maturation” of the values instilled by my home environment and family legacy. However, as noted above, this fulfillment of promise can be a disincentive to further progress if it becomes too inflexible.

Moon + Mountain could imply that exposure to public appraisal of, and appreciation for, my work has encountered a barrier to further expansion (which is largely self-inflicted due to inertia).

Stars + Crossroads seem to be showing me that I can find a way around the Mountain if I set my mind to it. All it would take is a decision to dedicate myself to the quest.

The diagonals here are highly revealing. Whip + Letter + Crossroads suggest that I could stir up some antagonism as I continue to move “off the beaten path” in my writing on modern metaphysics, while Tree + Letter + Tower could be construed as a viral attack on the “bastion” of established practice as exemplified by my critical stance on the more idealistic (aka “starry-eyed”) psycho-spiritual modes of divination. (Although I’m not entirely mean-spirited on the subject, I’m well-aware that I advocate an unpopular viewpoint as a mystical mud-slinger).

In summary, the more encouraging aspects of the “baseline” prospectus are dampened by a majority of the “covering” cards. An individual I recently helped with a problem told me that I have a “gift,” and it’s a talent I would like to bring to a wider audience than the one I already reach via this blog. But I’m not much of a self-promoter and am hesitant about selling myself to potential clients through unsolicited contacts. My astrological “signature” for this is all wrong: Cancer/Scorpio/Capricorn may be magnetic but the combination isn’t very approachable or socially dynamic. Nothing in this reading other than Sun + Fish strongly advises how I might overcome these self-limiting attitudes and behaviors. At most, I may be able to further my cause through teaching and speaking engagements if I can somehow arrange them while successfully conquering my innate reserve. Although I’m sure that many people who experience the same disinclination merely resort to online reading, I’m not really wired that way since I consider what we do to be primarily an interactive art that is most cogently exercised in a face-to-face setting.